What've you been up to? Everything Lame.

Wu-oh. Lately my life has been extremely busy. With what? I have no clue. I have little "down time," but not much to show for it. I hate it when people ask me what I've been "up to." Because, although I'm extremely busy, I haven't been "up to" anything that's cool enough to talk about.

I babysit a lot, I clean some houses, I sit some houses and dogs, I volunteer at the pregnancy center (only because my mom is directing, I'm not an amazing person,) I'm involved with church stuff, I workout three times a week with Allie, and sometimes find the time to hang out with friends. I rarely see my family, there are times when we are all home, but we're all busy doing things other than interacting with each other.

I really love being busy but I miss the times when I didn't have to check my day planner to see if I could go to a movie this weekend. Seriously, I have to carry a day planner. How lame is that? A seventeen year old with a day planner. Honestly, get a life.

My kitten died this weekend. That was lame.

My friend got into a really bad car accident and had her baby prematurely. That was lame.

My friend and the baby are both okay. That's really amazing.

I've been worrying a lot lately about my future. Being a senior, I'm going to have to seriously start considering colleges which means I need to think about what I want to do so that I can find the college that will best fit my needs. I'm really torn over this. The two things that I'm passionate about are not things that are necessarily easy to make a living with.

If I go with the vocal performance, which is what I love to do most, I have no clue what I'd end up doing in the long run. Sure, there are quite a few different options, but it's not the most steady route. Not to mention that I'm not even close to being confident enough to pursue it. So many people have told me that this is really what I should be doing. Sometimes I just don't buy it. I don't believe in myself. I also don't have nearly enough knowledge to know where to start with this or what would be my best options....

If I go with the art, I dunno...that's more of a hobby thing that I go through spurts with. I love to do it, but I'm not sure if I'd get tired of it. Whatever I end up doing, I want it to be what I love, I'm not going to settle. I'm also not confident enough in my art skills to go after this. All I know is what I taught myself and the few things that I learned in a few semesters of classes. Art is not always a very steady route either.

I have no clue.

I'll leave it up to the big guy. If he lets you in on any of this, will you please let me know?

I know everything'll work out but right now all I'm doing is freaking out.

Well, I might have been up till early this morning playing DDR and watching horrible movies with Jenny, which means I'm tired.

Yeah, whatever.

Hey, Jenny...Just stop it, okay?

Well, the reason that I haven't posted anything in quite some time is because I have nothing to post about.

Nothing that would interest you, anyway.

I don't have time to think about important stuff these days, too busy worrying about trivial things that won't matter after breakfast tomorrow morning. Too busy in general. I'm okay with it.

Well, here's a quote for ya. To all those who are easily offended by foul language: I'm sorry. But seriously, this is somewhat of a funny quote.

"We're not going to some white collar resort prison. No, no, no! We're going to Federal POUND ME IN THE ASS prison!"